KEeping A jOURNAL
January 26, 2006
"Nothing happens until you decide. … Make a decision and watch your life move forward"
I started to have my personal journal last year.,,.basically the reason i got that because it’s a christmas present given to me by one of my friend,,I PLAn to have one but it will be better if this will be a gift from someone you know it’s also a right time to have one because during that time i was on the stage of depression,emotionally and spritually,,, feeling Down and alone. I began to write my journey towards to a new beginning in my life,As well my craziest thought,,or anything that i feel to write,,it’s also one way for me to breath in this fast pace of life…I realize life will not always be a bed of roses there will be thorns ,thorns that give us strength to continue what we have not finish,,,,REalize that we should learn to stand and face the world ahead of us and to keep standing despite of every failure that we encounter in our lives,,,.,,,***EXCERPT FROM MY JOURNAL**jan0305…
Then now 2006 i only have 10pages left in my journal,,,So it means i need a new one,so anyone who is kind-hearted i hope your reading my blogged…i need a NEW JOURNAL(CHarity pls)
Thought about love and life…….
January 25, 2006
fOR THose who fall in love,,,fall out of love and beginning to find love…just a little thought to share
Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happinesss not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being. To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare you away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heartrun your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn’t mean you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is though everything is a miracle.
bReaKaway….
January 24, 2006
i Want to breakaway…….this is the best thing to do if you want to see the real world far from what you are expected…..I love this song so much even though i’m not really a Kelly clarkson fan,,But i really love this song
Grew up in a small town Trying hard to reach out I’ll spread my wings Out of the darkness Want to feel the warm breeze Buildings with a hundred floors
And when the snow would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreamin’ of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away
And I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes
Till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
And into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Far away and break away
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but
Gotta keep movin’ on movin’ on
Fly away break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance make a change
And break away
Breakaway
Best Thing in LIFE Are……
1.falling in love
2.laughing so hard until your face hurts
3.family
4.good conversation
5.sweet dreams
6.beach
7.getting butterflies in your stomach everytime that you see that person.
8.Hug the one you love
9.midnight phone call that last for hrs
10.waking-up realizing you still have few hours left to sleep
11.friends
12.watch the sunrise
13.laughing at yourself
14.having somone play w/ur hair
15.gettin mail
16.getting out of bed every morning and thank go for another beautiful day
song for the moment
January 20, 2006
I LOVE HER VIDEO AS WELL THE SONG ,luxurious, by,,,,GWEN STEFANI
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard, saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back, the pay back, the pay back
Champagne kisses, hold me in your lap of luxury
I only want to fly first-class desires, you’re my limousine
So elegant, the way we ride, our passion, it just multiplies
There’s platinum lightning in the sky
Look I’m livin’ like a queen
This kind of love is getting expensive
We know how to live, baby
We’re luxurious, like Egyptian cotton
We’re so rich in love, we’re rollin’ in cashmere
Got it in fifth gear, baby
Diamond in the rough is lookin’ so sparkly
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard, saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back, the pay back, the pay back
Sugar, honey, sexy baby
When we touch it turns to gold
Sensitive and delicate, kinda like a tuberose
You know you are my treasure chest
It’s pure perfection when we kiss and
You’re my Mr., I’m your Miss
Gonna be until we’re old
This kind of love is getting expensive
We know how to live, baby
We’re luxurious, like Egyptian cotton
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard, saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back, the pay back, the pay baCK
And we’re so rich in love, we’re rollin’ in cashmere
Got it in fifth gear, baby
Diamond in the rough is lookin’ so sparkly
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard, saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Working so hard, every night and day
And now we get the pay back, the pay back, the pay back
Single life
January 19, 2006
The past few months I have discovered that I am not as lonesome as I once was.I thought I just couldn’t be happy by myself and now I find that I am happier than I thought I could be, Almost to the point I am starting to wonder if I want to give of myself to someone else. In the past I have always let my heart lead me, being the hopeless romantic that I am, and following your heart and not your head can get you into trouble sometimes. So now finally, I am more so trying to use my head and not my heart.
I guess it adds pressure when all of your friends are becoming quite busy with their love life’s that you hardly hangout with them anymore. Aggravated towards the holiday season when every member of your family start asking, “when are you getting married or do you have a boyfriend at all?” Pointing out that you are not getting any younger. Then the valentines just add misery to it all.
Yeah, I know being single at times like this when most of your closest friends had already found their significant other is really tough… Difficult even! How would you defend yourself that you don’t need someone to make you happy, when they keep on insisting you lead a very lonely life? I used to feel that way, but after being alone, I’ve learned how to get used to it and eventually be happy about it. How I wish we could have all this knowledge that comes with age and living life’s experiences at the start instead of now. God must have a real big sense of humor!
I like being able to come and go when I please, go with friends at a moments notice or just hang around the house looking awful if I want. I don’t know when will be the right one come, I just don’t know that yet. I’m not closing my doors just yet. But I have finally discovered that being single isn’t quite so bad. I have discovered that I can entertain myself if need to, and also it doesn’t take someone else to make you happy. I have discovered that fullness of joy comes from within our hearts and by knowing that no matter what happens God will never leave you alone. I have a great feeling inside when I say this it is such a revelation to me. God has been good and He had set me free from all the struggles that I’ve been through after all these years. What I have found recently is such a treasure. I have always looked to someone else to make me happy, but now I’m looking up to God and peopel around me,I’ve never been so happier.
10 things to gIve this year…written by deborah brown
January 18, 2006
1. Your Time.
How many of you are too busy with your own lives to give your time to others? Being busy is an excuse and a reason not to go out of your way. People need you and love you. They want to see you. Let them in. ! Let them have time with you.
2. Your Support. 3. Your Acceptance. 4. Your Attention. 5.Your Forgiveness. 6. Your Patience. 7. Your Love. 8. Your Ideas. 9. Your Smile. 10. A Hug. Human touch warms the heart and keeps us connected. In addition, it doesn’t take much effort, it costs nothing, and it makes someone’s day. Couldn’t you find time in your schedule to hug someone you love today?
How many of you really support the people in your life? What I mean by support is encouragement and reasons to try something new, not 10 different reasons why it won’t work. There’s nothing better than telling a person that they can do whatever they want in this world.
This may be a toughie for some of you. This means unconditional love and the ability to love someone for who they are and not what you want them to be. It means giving up how you think their life should go, and accepting them for what they want to do with their lives. This is the greatest gift that you can give to the people in your life.
How many of you really listen to the people in your life? For everyone who just said "of course I do," then why are the people in your life asking you to repeat what they just said? It’s because they know that you didn’t hear them. Take a few minutes, stop what you are doing, and focus on the people who you love.
Forgiving people for past mistakes and hurts is one of the greatest gifts you can give them. After all they are only human. Plus, I’m sure that you haven’t been the perfect human being either. Keeping hurt and anger in your life is just an excuse not to get close to people for fear that they will hurt you again.
How many of you can’t even be with the people you love because they are taking too long to tell a story or are taking longer than "you think" to complete a project that you think should take less time to get done. How do you know that there isn’t a better way to do something if the people around you always have to do it your way? Having patience with people shows them that they are respected and loved.
People want to know that they are special in your life and that you care about them. If there are things that are keeping you from loving them such as conversations that you want to have with them, but you’re afra! id, my advice is to say it. Sometimes you have to take a risk to achieve an open and rewarding relationship. Take the risk and give your love.
Sometimes people want to move forward in their lives but they don’t know h! ow. You may know something that they never thought of. And who knows, your ideas may change somebody’s life. So go ahead, don’t be afraid to share what you know.
There is nothing better that entering a room and seeing ! someone smile when
you walk in. Right then and there you know that your presence makes a difference in their life. A smile is easy. You just grin upward. Plus, you burn many more calories than from frowning.
Greatest aDVICE
Don’t date because you are desperate.
Don’t marry because you are miserable.
Don’t associate with people you can’t trust.
Don’t dictate because you are smarter.
Don’t demand because you are stronger
Don’t sleep around because you think you are old
enough and know better.
Don’t hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don’t sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don’t live in the past. Time can’t bring anything or
anyone back.
Don’t put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs
Right.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career. Sometimes, there is no race to be won.
Only a price to be paid for some of life’s more hasty
decisions.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the
homeless.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don’t bring another life into this world for all the
wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter. Get rid of
destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous
Don’t live life recklessly without thought and
feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself. Don’t commit when you are not
ready.
Don’t keep others waiting needlessly.
Take care of yourself. Don’t wait for someone to take
care of you.
You light up your life. You drive yourself to your destination. No
one completes you - except YOU.
art of Letting GO
January 14, 2006Letting go
To let go doesnt mean to stop caring; it means I To let go is not to cut myself off, its the realization To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means To let go is not to try to change or blame another, I To let go is not to care for, but to care about. To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive. To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be To let go is not to in the middle arranging all the To let go is not to deny but to accept. To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone but To let go is not to regret the past but to grow and To let go is to fear less and to love more than you have before
can do it for someone else.
that I cant control another.
from natural consequences.
the outcome is not in my hands.
can only change myself.
human being.
outcomes, but to allow others to be protective, it is
to permit another to face reality.
search out my own shortcomings and to correct
them.
but to take each day as it comes and to cherish
the moment.
to try to become what I dream I can be.
to live for the future.
the year that was,,,,,,
LEsson I’VE LEARned…………
2005 has ended,2006 has begun,not realizing that there are a lot things happen in my life…. i’ve been very busy of work i never realize how fast life can be,,,,how people change and people may come and go in your life,,,,but one thing that stuck in my mind is being contented for what i have,i often complain, but Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want,it is the realization of how much you already have It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that! we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way,The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,you can’t go on well in life until you
let go of your past failures and heartaches.So as the day go by,i thank god for the blessing that i have and how wonderful life can be,,,,,,,,































